Last night/early this morning, I was ready to pack it all in and leave this God forsaken site. But this morning, with the help of my beyond wonderful bf, I've decided I'm not going to be the one who goes away.

Last night, I had a rather unplesant situation with two members of this board, who I shall not name. Hey, if you want to know who, do the work yourselves :)
As a result, I was angry and upset enough to want to leave. Then Matthew-the incredible bf- finally made me see leaving is exactly what I shouldn't do. What annoys me most-about myself- is just a few weeks ago, I implored another person here not to leave because they were also being treated just as rudely as I felt I was last night. How can I tell them to be the better person and face these "bullies" if I cant do the same thing myself?? So I feel the best thing I can do is try to remember: we're not in middle school anymore, kids. Leave the teasing and bullying for the playgrounds.

And in case those two read this-I'm positive at least one of them will and feel the need to vent some more at me: its in their nature, I fear: I offer these two things: I'm sorry-to the first- you feel the need to lash out and overdramatize situations. Im certainly not the first person this has happened to and sadly, I suspect I wont be the last. And to the second person, I'm not sorry about who I am. I just feel sorry for you if you can't or won't accept the truth when you hear it. I thought you might be someone I could concider a friend. But apparently something about the way I type or express myself reminds you of someone else. I'm sorry, but that is your hangup, not mine.


Val