breyfogle

what's this life for....i dont know what im supposed to do anymore...somewhere i lost my way... everything i do is for my children now... i love them more than my life itself... but i have to wonder is this it... i'd love to find someone who stokes my fire, but i don't think she exists... i'm a loner, but i get along well with others... i made a lot of wrong decisions in my life which together have inexploricably led me to here...i dont see a way to get back on the correct life path... thats probably why i'm on medication... im definitely reliving my life through my children... my dad died when i was 12... i dont know how i made it this far... my son is 13... he'd never make it if i wasn't here... i used to write and draw, but my creativity is also lost... i really dont have any friends, but i dont care... and even though i dont know what to do i'd choose immortality over suicide every time... religion...lets just say i dont believe... and i don't care to hear from those who do... whats this life for ... i ask you...