I think I know the reason I harbor such ill feeling towards the man I love. Because the love I bear for him is so great. It brakes my heart to see he loves others. How can I have my fears silenced when there are others in our marriage? My insecurities are as much my fault as they are his. Why can he not see how much he brakes my heart when I am pushed aside for the betterment of others?

I know it is not just his fault, had I not based so much of who I am on my love for him I would be able to stand aside. We who love to much and are loyal to a fault must bare our own crosses.